This morning I had a doctors visit, and my cervix is at 2.5 It did bum me out a little, but after a nap, and some lunch, I am feeling a little better about it. So of course the news is still bed rest, but I have to say I am just getting frusterated that I have to be down so much, and then I get frusterated that I am getting frusterated because at least I have reached this point, and the bed rest is working. I feel incredible selfish that I can't just relax and enjoy being able to keep my baby in my womb. I feel so bad like Noah is just bored all the time, and I feel just lazy. I can't fit into anything, so I wear huge pajama's all day long, which does little for my self esteem. Just keep me in your prayers that my attitude will be better, and that God will teach me patience through this.
Jeff's mom will be here in about 2 weeks, and I feel like a load of stress will be taken off, because I know Noah will get so much more attention, and have someone to play with. I will also enjoy the company. Jeff is back in school, so I home alone all day, and desperately want some one to visit with.
So we did schedule my c-section for Ava on Nov. 16th. If all goes well, that will be when I deliver, of couse we will have to wait and see.
Thanks again for all the prayers and meals.
Crystal
3 comments:
Oh Crys I am praying for I know this time must be hard for you I can't imagine being on bed rest is much fun at all especaillay when you have a toddler that is probably eager to play with his momma. Just remeber so many are cheering you on and that at the end you will have a beautiful healthy baby girl!
I noticed you said people are bringing you meals I would love to help with this if you need an extra meal also I would love to come visit with you if you need some company just give me a shout or shoot me an email!
I love you! Jess
Oh Crys I am praying for I know this time must be hard for you I can't imagine being on bed rest is much fun at all especaillay when you have a toddler that is probably eager to play with his momma. Just remeber so many are cheering you on and that at the end you will have a beautiful healthy baby girl!
I noticed you said people are bringing you meals I would love to help with this if you need an extra meal also I would love to come visit with you if you need some company just give me a shout or shoot me an email!
I love you! Jess
Hi Crystal!
I can just hear the ache of frustration in your "voice"! But be assured, you are NOT selfish for wishing you didn't have to lay around all day, just how any normal woman would feel in your shoes. We always want to be all things to all people and when we can't do that, it's hard. But you're right, this is a great chance to watch God provide for your needs through the body of Christ and that lesson in patience that's so hard to learn. In fact, I don't think I'll ever fully learn it, it's one of my biggest struggles. I'll continue to pray for you and for baby Ava (is that what you picked, I can't remember?). Not long now my friend, not long now! Every week, every day is a blessing, just try to remember that when you're feeling blue.
Love you!
Sarah
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